the word is "miffed."

I am miffed… Which means I am somewhere in between frustrated, disappointed and confused.



At the fact that I have so many ambitions, yet choose to follow none of them.

Art. - Ask Watson. Nuff said.

Singing. - I COULD be good, if I practiced more often. But I’ve stopped singing, I have no idea why.

Acting - You have no idea how much I love it…
The only reason I didn’t take Theatre last year was because of my mother’s guilt-trip in not being able to take creative writing as a freshman when it’d do wonders for me, and BEGGING me to take journalism as a way for me to write. Then this year, the elective I had been looking foreward to taking since 8th grade filled the only slot. Watching Zach, Lani, Vy-anh, Alena, Jansen, and Sulaman on stage made it clear that I need to switch from Art 1 to Theatre 1. I can only take one or the other up to class 2 anyway… so why not take Theatre instead and have more fun?

Dance - My mother refuses to believe in me on this… When I’ve begged for lessons since I was six.


Next year I’m going to be SO much better to myself, and do what I want to do. No matter what people say or think.

I’m taking dance lessons this summer with Eve, hopefully, and doing work with it off and on after this summer; maybe with the same company, or possibly joining the dance team? But I want to work with the plays Winter in between sports… so we’ll see where it goes. I’m getting a job and buying a camera/tablet for photoshop, and switching out of Art 1 to take Theater Arts. :)

OR: Take a summer school course, or get the japanese 2 credit before school starts, and drop languages to take art and theater :D (As much as I love Japanese and sensei.. I just don’t learn much in that class… and I’m afraid for Japanese 3, with kids who study, and not being able to learn enough to pass into AP. (AND WITH MY FREE SLOT SENIOR YEAR TAKE ANOTHER AP TO COMPENSATE).

Along with APs/honors/practices/schoolwork/portfolio stuff I won’t have much of an outside of school freetime/social life. Which is good for me. Free time gives me bad thoughts.
There’s so much stuff I want to do~! So little time. I’m going to try everything at least once. Junior year is supposed to be the busiest and craziest… I’m just glad I’m not taking Calculus.

With all the art classes I may make NHS and have more work to do. xD