Holyshit.

Hello blogger people~ Been a while, hasn't it ;]

I'm writing here about this year. Sophomore year as a whole and Summer 08. This is not necessarily a "year-in reveue" post, but a "how far we've come this year" post.

It has been a year of firsts for me. From riding in a car with boys without my seatbelt, to late nights sneaking out. I tried all the bad stuff a teenager can get into, and all the good. I fell in love, if you can call it that. I've also.... Experimented? Whatever you want to call it. xD

I made bigger mistakes than I ever have, but I've also taken so many risks and become less hesitant to try new, good things. This year has had so many ups and downs, but it's been awesome.

The date I began doing things last year was March 28, 2008. I saved the date. From that day on I could not consider myself a pure, well adjusted teenager. From that day on, things began happening. I smoked pot, drank, took pills, met boys, etc. I hate the fact that all most half of the year between March 28, 2008 and the same day in 2009 centered around either talking about or doing drugs. But my opinnoin on them/us then is: Look how close they made us. It's not about the fact that it was illegal. It was the fact that we were willing to, as a group make decisions and do things without causing drama. We functioned as a whole, and when we disagreed with someone/thing. WE TALKED ABOUT IT.

Look at how our group is at the moment, yes I hate calling it a "group," it makes it seem so closed-off. But I mean, it's easier to say our group than our regular circle of friends and acquaintances. That's not the point, look at us. People have done things we all disagree on. Yet we do not speak to them directly about it, and try to make compromises. We end up talking shit, or suffering in silence, until things blow up to all hell. I include myself in this predicament. I have done things that I may not have if I had just said something to begin with... Things do not get better if you ignore them. We're all friends, I hope, and we're all aware of the sting of criticism, but we can get through it if we talked things through. Apologised, told oursides, actually grew-up and CHANGED.


The end of sophomore year is bittersweet for me. Things are changing so drastically after summer. Junior year, being an upperclassman, driving, VARSITY sports, working, making friends with freshmen, college applications. All that good stuff. Yet so much sad stuff, so many people leaving... 3 ap classes, less free time with work and sports, a lisence but no car, chaffeuring my brother around... Blahblahblah. I'm not like Vy-anh, a person who lives and breathes for change, and can embrace it whenever it happens. I enjoy change, I'm just a bit scared. No not scared... Excited but sad? Hard to explain. =X

We've been through so much, together, guys. Why be so down, and say it's going to go away? We know it's not going to be the same, but hey, it changed so much last year. It's just this time we know it's going to have to change...

Love always <3

CLT: I freaking love the SIMS. xD I love being like their god, and making them do whatever I want them to >:] I'm going to buy The SIMS3 when I get the money. I would play the Sims 2 but my VISTA processor won't let me... DDD: