So maybe I can't take a joke.

But if you really knew me by now you'd realise that I have probably the lowest self esteem out of all of us.

Did you know that I used to SI because I got so depressed?

Do you know that when people call me fat I take it seriously?
I stopped eating almost completely for a week or so, when someone told me I needed to lose weight earlier this year.
The only reason I started playing sports was to get fit.


And to leave me, just begin ignoring me without a word otherwise...
Especially after how greatful I was to you for helping me conquor my fears last week.

You know what all of the males in my life have done?
Either used me and left, or have just completely cut me out.
My dad, for one. I mean, goddamnit. If you really knew how much you hurt me this week... ESPECIALLY because you sort-of left me for the one person in our "group" you KNOW I have some problems with.

Okay, maybe I am taking this too seriously. So maybe I can't take a joke. But to not say two words to me in person this entire week, you made me think I offended you somehow...

Now I see that you're just acting like that one person you dispise.
Going away, saying you don't want to hang out because of one reason or another... Then, like that person, you're going to come back and think somethings aren't going to change between us.

I loved having you as a part of my life, and regular circle of friends... I would love it if you would start talking to me again...

Most of your jokes and things I can shrug off, but this, this takes it.