angry rant.

Okay, I admit I was being a little angry Saturday.
But Sam, Jansen, you guys know exactly why I was upset, and to go and do that to me, is not fair.

Kayso.. Here's what happened:
One AM Saturday, Jessica calls.... Crying... "Jeremiah's getting locked up. Say goodbye."

Basically, he tells me that the charges plus his prior record were enough to get him tried as an adult... and is leaving early today (it's 1AM) to start his 2-5 year sentence in County. Says Vinh and Stephen got locked up too. But in Juvenile corrections, they're getting out sooner, don't know when. Tells me he loves me and he misses me, and not to cry.. He's got my number written down and will call me if he gets the chance. He was sober this time, perfectly straight. I have no idea how that happened... Too late, I guess.

I TOLD HIM I would go with him to court, if he gave me a date...
I told him to sober-up before anything happened.



I don't sleep until 4:30 after that. Wake-up at six from the excruciating pain I've been in all week. The stress made it worse.
I ended up not eating anything until late evening, then feeling nauseous.


The only person I talked to it about was Julio, for a while... He said come over. Jess might come-up, and he doesn't want me to be alone.

I decided to not go to dinner, so I could try to cheer up before the play. By now I had told Jansen and Samantha as well.

AND YOU GUYS SHOW UP LATE. EXPECTING ME TO SAVE SEATS FOR EVERYONE.
Goddamnit.

I just wasn't in the mood to be let down like that.
I didn't even want to go to the play anymore.
I wanted to just hang out at Josh's place... Just chill, cheer up.


I promised I would go, so I did... But really? You guys practically left me there, ALONE, for half the play. You know how awkward that feels???? Especially when I'm already about to break down????

I mean, come on.
Guys, get organized.