who are you, really?

answer me that question.

Who are you, really?

Are you always true, and do you act the same way around everyone you meet? Do you gossip about people who are your best friends? Go over situations in your minds, and judge? When friends aren't supposed to judge?



Hm..... I've been pondering that for a while.


Who am I?



There are always two sides to every story.. who I think I am is most likely completely different to who others think I am.



Sometimes I think that I'm a bitch.. and I make myself out to be this judgemental, put-me-before-everyone-else kind of person. Which is usually not the case. When I'm in a bad mood or something, I get picky, and just want everybody else to feel as bad as me. Sometimes I thik that people should just do what I want them to do... Because I'm just feeling like I have no control. Selfish, no?

Sometimes I think that I'm wayyyyy too sensitive. I get over-dramatic about the smallest things or one situation in perticular will make me so angry that I just don't wanna stop talking about it or I'll explode.

And other times I find myself feeling like I'm a manipulative person. Who can warp people's minds into doing what I want them to. Most of the time it's a sexual thing, but I know I can use myself and I use it to my advantage.

And then other days.... I like who I am, and I like what I've become, and I know that all of those sides to me are just reflected differently with the situations I'm in, and the people I'm with.

I think that the last one is the most real. :D

===blah===

OhMyGosh.

Guys.

You are retarded when you're drunk.

You really are.

3 shots the whole night. No weed. Some cigarettes.

Just 3 jell-o shots (1 because I had never had one, and the other 2 because they were that effing good)

I saw the WHOLE THING. No memory lapses, no constant urges to leave and go to the bathroom. I saw the whole thing! Sober as a bird.

I'm 2 for 4 now. SUCK IT. :D

Now I want to record myself drunk. Apparently it's interesting. xD

If only he'dve noticed me last night... Heh.
I was trying to be more out-there this time.. but unfortunately all my friends were busy either with guys or sleeping... I'm a lot more shy than people know. Dx

GODD. I'm an idiot. Thinking anybody, not just him, would be interested in me there..
The little white girl, who sticks out as it is, trying to chill with a bunch of geeky asians who just-so happen to be on average 2 years older than her.

He told me to be more "out-there..." and to have more self-confidence.. which is a little hard to do if you're me.

Heh.

I sort-of wish things happened. But then again I don't. Because I have a CRUSH on him, okay. I don't even like him like that. I don't want to fuck him.

God this is odd (heh, egg.).. I'm paranoid. What if he READS this and thinks I'm strange. I don't post the link anywhere else but my AIM profile, but Vy-anh's blog is reach-able via Facebook, which means he could click on the link and read this and think i'm a creep. -___-

i'ma stop now.

CLT: I wear my life on my sleeves... I'm very open with people, which is probably bad... But yea.. If you wanna know something about me, anything. Just ask! I'll most likely tell you and be like whatever.