I've lost Ipods, Cell phones, books, notebooks, pencils.

But how the hell do I lose a bag???

Eh, not lose.

more like "misplace"
I left it in the cafeteria lobby.

I mean, who would want my stuff,
I had my Ipod/Cellular with me.

Good thing is, I left it there after late busses, so the only people who might have picked it up were Janitors.

i can't believe I did that...

The only things I'm worried about are my PreCalc textbook, my TI83 and Jess's necklace (the blue shark-tooth one).
The sentimental/expensive stuff.

I don't need anything else.
The bag either! Just give me that stuff back.

Heh, so if you see it, give me a shout.

i.. ur, uhh, what I mean is ~

FOLLOW-UP ON LAST BLOG


I've been seeing a lot of those cookie-cutters lately.

I know I shouldn't care.


But if I judge them, are they judging me back??


And I'm not judging.
I'm speaking truth.


when speaking in specifics, the people who fall under this category do all the things in that category, to me, show no sense of individuality.

Maybe they're individuals in their mainstream-ness???

Which kind of depresses me.


Thats what I've been pondering.
xD

quick n' easy blogging.

I've learned to blog in the mornings, when I'm finished getting ready for school, because I don't have time to compose something large anymore.

I want my own computer T-T

((HAH. that counts as my last Calvin Lin Trend post)) :D

I absolutely hate people who are mainstream, everything.

people who wear Hollister/American Eagle/Abercrombie clothes,

read primarily mainstream books (yes, they have those),
anything by Sara Dessen (every girl has read at least one of her books, they're good, but everyone I know has read one, including me.), Twilight, etc

and like primarily Mainstream music.
Jhonas Brothers, Chris Brown, Rhianna, anything on 99.5 24/7.

Cookie Cutter people.
Who follow fads, and what their friends do.

no, I'm not talking about any certain people/person, even though I do know people like this, I'm not here to trounce them. Chill.

I know what I like, and I don't like that. So for all who have friends who do 3/3 things (note, primarily, if you do it more than 50% of the time), sorry, don't invite them to my birthday.

But what I'm getting at is,

if i don't follow fads, and trends.

I hate berka scarfs, i didn't get into Twilight, I don't know how to do Soulja Boi, I don't think I've ever been in an Abercrobie & Fitch. < (I'm lazy, that last part counts as my CL today :D)


Does that make me a freak?

I wonder what this week has in store.
I'm sure something interesting....
I hope something fun.

Things are looking up :D

playlist number 3.

Today I've danced my troubles away :D
I feel refreshed.

These are the songs that made me feel oh-so much better.
Listen and be revitalized.

Shugarbaby - Morning Wood
Bufallo Soldier- Bob Marley
Fan - Epik High
Have You Ever Been Mellow? - Party Animals (cover of Olivia Newton John)
Super Honeymoon - Owl City
Johnny Makeup - Gravy Train!!!!
Hella Nervous - Gravy Train!!!!
Double Decker Supreme - Gravy Train!!!! (About the most perverted music I've ever heard comes from them. And I listen to the Bloodhound Gang and Say Anything!...)
The Queen and I - Gym Class Heroes
Hotel California - Bob Marley (Cover of The Eagles)
She's Gonna Break Soon - Less than Jake
I was Walkin' With a Ghost - Teegan and Sara
Touchdown Turnaround (don't give up on me) - Hellogoodbye
Deceptacon - Le Tigre
Santaria - Sublime
Hash Pipe - Weezer (I always think of Samantha Vo when I hear this song xD)
Panty Shot - Mindless Self Indulgence
Typical - Mute Math

re: happy couples?

there's nothing in the world that I want more than for him to be here with me.

Distance hurts.

The age difference kind of makes it difficult for my mum to understand (he's 14 months older than me.. so he'll be 18 while I'm 16.). Which makes this very difficult.

The fact that he calls me drunk. With no idea what he's saying. Makes me want to cry.

Yea. I'm real happy.


And yet... I can't say I'm NOT happy.
He treats me like I'm actually worth something.
he's the only person I've never lied to....
He tells me all the things I need to hear.

He's not going to leave me.
I love him.. I think I can believe that now.


Lately I've been feeling so odd.

I go from being happy, to lashing out at people. I really don't understand how it happened. I just feel like I'm becoming something.

I literally am lashing out at people. That's not figurative. I'm sure people have noticed it too.

I'm turning into such a bitch. I know I am. So yea. Just come out and say it.
Well, its not that I'm turning into a bitch, I already am a bit of a bitch. I just don't like people knowing.

I mean... I gossip, I have a hatred for some people when they really didn't do anything to me per se. I just can't stand being around them. AT ALL.

I bitch about that all the fucking time; and then about 10 minutes later I feel like shit about it.

I don't like being like this.. I really don't, maybe I should just interact with people every other week or so... So I can't get tired of it.

Hm. Maybe I need some medication.


Urgh. Fuck my life.

I know if I could go back to feeling better I could go back to loving school and life again.
I just don't know what made me feel so depressed. Actually, I think I do, but I don't really want to talk about it....

I just took a Vicodin. My last one. My mum has been taking them/throwing them out.

I'ma go enjoy my rest day. Get caught up, and all that. I'm sure tomorrow I'll be back to at least somewhat normal...

The Calvin Lin Trend:

I think about dying every. single. day.
Either about dying myself. or asking myself why I wanted to die in the first place.

in answer to my questions from last time,



1) Brian Moloko. The singer from Placebo <3
2) Miyavi. Japanese singer he was more androginus earlier in his career

3) Teegan and Sara :D

Look at the bottom of my last post. you silly silly people xD
http://andawayigo-tiffsspot.blogspot.com/2008/09/ayo.html

Ayo~

I'm tired of using technology

I need you right in front of me.

I hate the fact that my only form of communication with him decided to PHAIL on me two days ago...

R.I.P Tiff's phone.

It lasted a year, I'm surprised it lasted that long.

I got my first cellular in fifth grade, only for "emergencies." It was replaced in sixth by a newer one. That one got fried in the sun. I got another one. That one was upgraded when my brother put his thru the washing machine. I had one through eighth grade, and got my red one. Soo... I've had a total of 6 phones. xD

I'm pissed 'cause I haven't gotten a chance to talk to him since Wednesday.

I miss him quite desperately right now. Just talking about nothing for hours on end with him made me happy. I haven't seen him since Saturday... It's just terrible, it hurts so much. I can't even write about it anymore.

FUCK.

I HATE ELECTRONICS.

But ohmygoshh I love Rent! :D

Its so good! Vy-anh.. You got me hooked on it.

I almost cried when Angel died.

I'm going to memorize La Vie Boheme, and sing it with Vy-anh and Calvin :]]
Hah, Angel.

Doesn't he make a cute girl?

I love him <3

His character! Such a sweetie. And just look at him! So fucking adorable.

I want that shower-curtain trenchcoat. >:(

Live in my house, I'll be your shelter, just pay me back with one-thousand kisses.

Be my lover, I'll cover you. ~

Gahhh Rent and Jeremiah are pretty much the only things on my mind.

I kind of wish something else was going on so I didn't have to feel like this....

He likes:

-Car hopping

-Binge Drinking

-Guitars

-Underground Hip Hop/Rap.

-Architecture

-Skating

-Chain Smoking

-Girls

-Me (Doi...)

I like:

-Musicals

-Gore

-Poetry

-Androginy (on men and women)

-Lolita Fashon

-Sports
-Loud basslines (like in trance music)
-The "occasional" party hard night out
-Him (Doi...)

I wonder why we work out so well.

I think they meant it when they said you can't buy love, now i know you can rent it and new lease you are my love, on life, be my life ~

The Calvin Lin trend:

I think the most beautiful people (both spiritually and physically) in the world are androginous.

Kudos to anyone who knows who these people are ;]

Today was Vy-anh's birthday, the little young'un, her 15th.

I'm turning 16 in a month and 3 days. I desperately want to do something with my friends, like, treat them to something.
I WANNA DO LAZER TAGGGGG. I figure, if I pay for all night for my closest buds... and everybody else comes on their own, or tags along (hey, it's lazer tag!) they can pay.

I felt really bad because I didn't get her anything T-T

I should've pitched in for baloons, or something at least.

AND she gave me a brownie??? Which was very delicious, as always with her baking. Which in turn made me feel even more terrible.

I'm so selfish sometimes....... I try so hard to think of other people first. But for some reason I never do well with money... I almost always spend my money on stuff for me, and then I don't have any left to buy gifts with.

I'm also very bad at gift giving. My handwriting/card-making skills are a little lacking... I never feel right giving gifts. I question whether or not they'll like them. :\\\

Soooo.. I'm makin her a card,

since I read her blog, and I now know that she leurrves cards :D
Hopefully I can make a cool collage one like Leah's, 'cept a little more... Full?

Hopefully she won't read this until tomorrow then..... ohwells.

I love cards too.. they make me cry. Most of the cards I get are full of the sweetest things, stuff you can't just sit someone down and say.

"Remember the day we met? I was so scared and you were there for me... "
"Even though we almost never see each other, I still care for you deeply...."

Cheesey stuff you would NEVER say out loud. Under any circumstances.
I guess that's what cards are for.


I've noticed I've been blogging a lot more lately.

I guess I just need somewhere to preserve my thoughts.
Somedays I could just sit down and write away..

But I never have enough time to get down what I want to say.
So, I blog, and summarize everything to the best of my abilities.

If it was my choice, I'd spend hours recording what happened in one day. So I wouldn't forget it.
All of it.
One day, I'm going to look at this and want to go back. I want to remember every. waking. detail. So deep in my heart, I can still be there. Remembering faces, and my feelings, and how others felt.

Because life is so good right now ^^

Eh..

Even my blogging time is cut short. By AP homework and English Journal writing.....

and away I go~


The Calvin Lin trend:

I loooooovee the smell of fresh-cut grass.
It's my favorite smell. :]


Because I love color coordinating things, and a lot of things come flooding through my mind at one time, I'm going to color-coordinate my blog.

Blue - tangents, read them or not.. They really don't have much to do with the main plot of my life xD
Green - change in topic; only the 1st sentence will be green.
Red - Hypothetical quotes.
Purple - Real life quotes.

catching up with myself

kayso I told you guys about my tooth extraction..
now I need to talk about what happened the day after. xD


Jeremiah came to see me/the fam Saturday.
We spent the day together. :]
(/night.. shh.)


Jeremiah and me are a couple now. He asked me out midnight, 08.30.08. :]
I couldn't be happier.
I guess.

Vinh was right.

I'm too scared to actually picture myself happy with anybody.
That's why I'm so prone to arguing with my boys and not "going-out" with people.

heh..
Sad, ain't it?

On a new note.....

I love the new "Calvin Lin" trend :]]]]

It's amazing how much he inspires people, no??
We're all opening up a little bit, not a lot, but its a start.

So feel proud, Calvin!!!

My fact of the post:

In all those super-hero movies, every kid identifies with Superman/Batman/Spiderman/etc.

I always wanted to be the Villian.
Especially... HER:

Thats Harley Quinn (HAHA Harley Quinn? Harlequinn?? Vy-anh's going to hate me xD).

The psychiatrist turned joker-obesessed villainess from the old 1990s Batman cartoon (THEN the comics. I could go on and on about Batman stuff. I seriously come from a family of geeks.xD).

I'm very dark, I suppose.