wisdom teeth surgeryyy

Friday was my tooth extraction, and what an adventure that was. I spent half the night talking to Jeremiah on the phone, and I got really hungry. Which SUCKED, because you're not supposed to have anything to eat or drink 8 hours before you go under.. So you don't make a mess if you die/relax too much xD. But anywayss.. I woke up at 7, which was two hours difference to normal Friday mornings, which was good. I got dressed, and went to the oral surgeon place. Me and my mum had to be there at 8 o'clock, even though I wasn't scheduled to have my surgery for another 30 minutes, and stupid me, didn't bring my Ipod.... I didn't think I would need it if they were going to nock me out. So I sat there... and waited...

and waited.
and then waited..

and then got freaked out about one of the girls coming out of surgery all loopy, she looked drunk. She was stumbling foreward in her gray sweatpants, tripping on the bottoms and laughing like a drunk person. I felt kind of bad for the nurses, they must hear a lot of stupid shit every day. xD

Now it was my turn. Some teeny old asian woman in brown stretchy-pants came and got me and my mum.
Her: "Hello! How are you today?"
Me: "uhh...."
Her: "You no want be here? You scared?"
Me: "Uhh, not really, just sleepy, and hungry"
*lady embrases me*
Her: "You be fine"
*leaves*

Then the surgeon came in, him and my mother started talking about my "advanced tooth growth." Then he started talking to me about how one second I'd be awake, and the next second I'd wake up. That part kind of freaked me out a little. ><
He gave me a shot in my arm to apparently numb my arm for another shot?
It BURNED like crazy, ahh.

The black nurse (where did she come from?!?!!) put the oxygen mask on me, which looked like a scooba mask... And started stroking my hair. I didn't know it, but the surgeon guy put the other needle in my arm, and I went to sleep.

I woke up an hour later in a tan room, with a huge wad of gauze in my mouth.
I was so groggy.
I don't remember much about it, but from what my mum says it went like this:

Me (to black nurse): oh look, you have two heads
Nurse: I do?
Me: yes, and now you have two bodies
Nurse: Oh really, so I have a clone.
Me: Yes, yes you do!
Nurse: Isn't that nice.
Me: Yes, yes it is nice. *smiles all big* :DDDD

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Me (To my mum): WHEN DID YOU GET HERE?!!?!?

Mum: I've been here about 5 minutes now.

Me: oh... okay.

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Me: OH look! my shoes! They're plaid! (I'm referring to my VANS..)

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Me: I wanna stand up. *Tries to stand up, tips the chair over and almost falls*

Nurse: Just sit down and be quiet.... It's okay.

Me: I CAN'T! I...I...I CAN'T. THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE!

When I started to come out of it, my mum took me to CVS to get my vicodin, and my antibiotics.
I fell asleep in the back of the car.

We were home, I took some vicodin and went to sleep. I watched TV and tried to keep my gums from exploding.. It hurt. Quite a lot.

Annnndddd..
that's how friday went xD

Something you didn't know about me:

I sing a lot.
In the shower, at the dinner table, in the car, while walking...

pretty much everywhere I go!

How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?

hm.

I dunno how i'm feeling right now, down, but up.
Like, I'm achy, but I can smile. It's hard to explain.

I got my camera for Photography Saturday!!
The guy was so nice to me, I got scared to talk to him. I'm really bad at talking to people. But he was real nice. he put the batteries in my camera and everything. It took me almost 45 minutes, and 2 rolls of film to actually load it.... Augh, I want to start shooting nowww!!! Mr. Watson says we have to wait till almost next quarter. Goddamn.

Fockey is pretty much the only thing going on in my life right now. Not that it's a bad thing, I'm having SO MUCH fun. I'm just so busy in trying to keep things together. I have no more free time. xD

God I want to cut loose [footloose? Kick of my sunday shoes? hell yes], but I'm trying to stay sober and I'm WAY too busy to do anything. The 8th day of school is tomorrow, and I can't be procrastinating right now..

Too late. >.<

Within the past few days I have:
~Gotten up early to do hw.
~Finished hw in Jag Time at the last minute
~Fallen asleep during a japanese quiz, and got a 50% [only 5/10... at least only 10 pts.]
~Forgotten to give my PreCalc teacher my work for the last page of the packet.
~Not studied for the AP world map quiz, and took it anyway.
~STILL HAVEN'T FINISHED THE SUMMER WORK FOR AP WORLD.

fuckfuckfuckfuck.
At least I still have an A in gym and chem??

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SUNDAY:

Me: I don't understand why life is so terribl[y boring]-

Him: Run away with me Tiffany.

Me: Where?

Him: Nebraska, I have people there, and a home waiting for me. Just you and me. I have money, and all I need is you.

Me: Wait 'till I finish high school. I'll transfer anywhere you want me to for college... And clear your juvenile record too, no skipping out on court dates, and leaving me all alone while you serve time.

Him: I'll already have you transferred. And I promise. I need you, Tiffany.

I don't know what to make of that, tbh.

Me and Vinh are o.v.e.r.

For good. We decided to end it after some more drama. I love the kid, I do... I'm closer to him than any other guy I know besides Jeremiah.

I just don't see myself in a steady relationship. Ever.

Bah.

I want more hours in the day.

It's 9:24, and I'm not supposed to be up... xD

I still have to write my thesis for AP World.

And write my journal for English.

Happy Anna? I updated. :]

Something you didn't know about me:

Nobody has ever told me I was "hot" until Vinh, and then his friend Michael told me, and then Jeremiah told me too.

Frankly, I don't believe them.

~insert original-sounding title here~

Made JV Field Hockey. wewt :D

Coach Stone: "You have incredible potential for a first timer.  You're a sophomore correct?"

Me: *Nods*

Coach Stone: "Good, do you like Field Hockey so far?"

Me: "Ohyea!! It's definitely..... Interesting.... interesting in a good way, though."

Coach Stone: *smiles* "Good to hear.  The only thing you need to work on is the difference between 'jogging' and 'running' (((There's a difference?????????))).  With a little work, you're going to be a great addition to the team.  See you tomorrow."

Me: *nods, looks down, smles* "Thank you."

She intimidates me....... >:\

Some people do that to me.

I just find it very hard to talk to them.

Not a lot of people, and not a lot of adults.

But some people just scare me.... 

Uhm, 

Me and Vinh have gotten back together.

Honestly... I dunno why I got back together with him. I did though. 

I'm happy, I am.

I'm just not as happy as I COULD be... With Jeremiah.

Bah.

We just need to spend some more time together.

Hopefully him and Jeremiah are coming Friday night/Saturday. Before the bonfire. I'm most definitely going to the bonfire. =]

Maybe I'll drag them along? Heh, that'd be fun.

I wanna make another playlist.

The color key is on the other one.

Songs I've been listening to over and over (this week):

Navigate me - Cute is What we Aim For

I Touch Myself - The Devynls

Right Side of the Bed - Atreyu

Everything she does is magic - The Police*

Every Breath you Take - The Police

Dear Jamie (Sincerely Me) - Hellogoodbye

Scene for Dummies - Hollywood Undead

Grace Kelly - Mika (Recommended by Vy-anh =])

Bulls on Parade - Rage Against the Machine

Feuer Frei! - Rammstein

Everything on MSI's "IF" album. 

*probably in my head due to the band playing it all the time.

Something you didn't know about me (I'm doing this for Calvin, so he can shut up about me not sharing anything on the phone):

My biggest fantasy is being pulled on stage at a rock concert and getting to jam with the band, The Used, or Chiodos or someone like that; either on guitar or vocals, and have everyone love me. [I wish I could play guitar] 

 

owie.

edit.

today at the ortho. i learned that I'm going to need surgery to extract my wisdom teeth.

I heard it's very painful.
my mom wants me to get it a.s.a.p.
but I don't want to miss the first couple days of school.
so hopefully... I can live for a while without it.

my mouth hurts as is.
but i'll live.

c'est le finale...

and the beginning of something completely different.

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I'm never good with brakeups or fighting....

Vinh and me cried on the phone last night.
I can't say I don't "love" him..... because I do. I'm just not "in love" with him, the way he is with me. That doesn't mean that I don't care for him, and think about him. He was right, though. If I'm not in love with him, we shouldn't be together, because we both won't be truly happy. Vinh deserves more that what I can give him. I just can't see myself with him for the long haul. We're too the same, in specific ways. We like the same things: same music tastes, same lifestyle choices, we could agree on pretty much everything. That just got dull.

We do the same things, we share a group of friends. We don't ever clash, no arguments, no challenges, it was just too easy.

And yet we're different.
I want something out of life, I want to be something. He'd rather sit on the couch and smoke all day. I want to go to college, Uni... Not like. NoVA. He'd rather..... sit on the couch and smoke all day? Day to day musings between us were dull. It was just not what I was looking for. Even if we were so much alike, I just couldn't find a romantic connection. But I don't want to never speak to him again.... It's too hard for me to picture my life without him in it.

He could never make me smile the way Jeremiah does (He's the reason we broke up in the first place). Vinh...... just, didn't fit with me. Jeremiah tells me things, and I can open up to him. He's sweet, but not over-sensitive (like someone...). He's got feelings, but he's not a crybaby. He can make me laugh, make me cry, make me smile, make me mad. Vinh can make me smile. He can make me feel good about myself. Probably just because he said he loved me, and meant it. No guy has ever done that for me. Jeremiah doesn't need to say it.

Because I just know he has feelings for me. He told me he does.

Him: Goddamn.....
Me: Hmm?
Him: Why.... why did I meet you after Vinh?
Me: Because you didn't call Jess that night and didn't have an awkwardly-hot phone convorsation with me.
Him: I know but that's not it... What I mean, why aren't I with you instead of him?
Me: ..... I don't know.
Him: You don't?
Me: Well... to be honest, I'd rather be with you. You make me feel different. I get those, butterflies you're supposed to get when I'm with you. I just don't get them with Vinh. I can't see myself with Vinh anymore.... He just doesn't seem to fit me the right way..

And that's how it all started last night. Vinh heard our convo on the phone.
That was some kind of night.
Too much crying.
Too much learning about myself.
Too much letting go.
I'm going to go back to sleep.

Different note: i got my teeth cleaned today.
I have this flouride treatment on them. It's so disgusting. It's like someone put soapscum on my teeth.

*sigh*

today is the greatest,

day i've ever known,

can't live for tomorrow,

tomorrow's much too long,

i'll tear my heart out,

before i'll get out.

Hollywood Undead debut album: 8.26.08 

Me and tyler are going to be the first in line. 

Something I didn't know:

When an elephant's mate dies, they will stop moving all together, lay down, and shed tears. REAL TEARS.  It will not accept any human/other elephant assistance, refuse to eat, and end up dying of starvation.

I found it, along with a bunch of other facts while stumbling.. Ahh stumble.

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Something you most probably don't know about me:

Jeffree Starr's music makes me wanna take my clothes off and dance. XDDD

I'm a c.u.n.t already xD

If you don't know what that is, then you don't know Jeffree Starr very well.

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