>.<

blah.
my facebook got hacked. Fucking-a.

virusscan.
trojanscan.
delete cookies.
reset computer.
backup computer.
reset pw/e-mail on facebook.
apologise for the random spam comments. ><

Hacking? Fuck. Facebook's turning into Myspace...

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I got my learner's permit yesterday w00t :D
already nearly crashed the car....

even after what happened the day before. I can still pass a supid test.
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Gah.
I hate it when people see me like that.
I was off in my own little world. Just staring into space.
But I hate doing it alone.

and I hate that people have let some other people do things they shouldn't.
I hate that I let people do things like that, especially because they don't know how to moderate it.

I can moderate drinking. I know when to stop. I don't like drinking, because your mindset changes. With hash, things slow down, but you still know where your at and what's going on. It's just slower, and a little bit farther away (You'll have to try it to get that). You don't ask your mother who they are when you're high, when you're drunk, you just might.

I can't moderate hash. I just can't.
I hate that I can't do that.
And I hate it that I saw them there. The same people who've tried to help me.

I don't know what I want anymore.
Somedays I just want someone to pull me out of it and smack me around till I snap out of it.
Somedays I just want to smoke till I can't stand up at all.
I'm thinking about it right now, I can't lie. I was thinking of calling "X" or "G" and getting some....
I was also thinking of getting something else... I know someone has some.
ah.

Whatever you do.. don't let me do pills. I'm asking people who read this, apparently people do read this... To keep me away from them. Cause I will do them, and I will get sick again.

I'm sorry I do these things to myself, honest....