thinking.

I never thought that
you would be the one to
make me see who I am
what I've been was
something other than myself

I never thought that
HE'D be the one that didn't need saving,
and I needed to be pulled out,
of the sinking ship.

thrown something to float on
given something to ride upon,
rescue from the coming storm,
And the dragons below the water

this raft's big enough for too, you know.
sit with me?

let's struggle through this ocean
one stroke,
two strokes,
2 oars forward,
4 eyes front.

it started like this: word for word. names have been changed to protect the innocent.

me.(12:47:49 AM): i just know how to push your buttons :]

me.(12:47:51 AM): mhmm

him. (12:47:56 AM): Oh you do now do you.?

me.(12:48:01 AM): but not without the fear of guilt

him.(12:48:02 AM): I know how to push yours.

me.(12:48:03 AM): mhmm

him.(12:48:03 AM): to a limit.

me. (12:48:06 AM): orly?

me.(12:48:09 AM): try me..

him. (12:48:12 AM): It's okay.

me.(12:48:15 AM): go ahead.

me.(12:48:16 AM): use me.

me.(12:48:18 AM): do it.

him. (12:48:22 AM): not funny.

me.(12:48:26 AM): hm?

him.(12:48:28 AM): Forget it.

me.(12:48:36 AM): i'm used to it.

me. (12:48:37 AM): srsly.

him. (12:48:41 AM): Whatever you say.

him. (12:48:47 AM): I'm going out for a walk.

him. (12:48:48 AM): ^^

him. (12:48:49 AM): ttyl.

me.(12:48:52 AM): all-righty

me.(12:48:55 AM): byeee :]

me.(12:49:10 AM): good talkin to ya.

be around more often, you're fun

me. (12:49:58 AM): and I am used to it.

me. (12:50:03 AM): srsly... you don't know

me. (12:50:05 AM): 'but i am

him. (12:50:08 AM): you know.

him. (12:50:09 AM): seriously

him. (12:50:15 AM): I've heard you once

him. (12:50:19 AM): you don't need to repeat it.

him. (12:50:20 AM): seriously.

me. (12:50:22 AM): lol

me. (12:50:25 AM): heh

him. (12:50:27 AM): it's not even worth loling about.

me. (12:50:30 AM): yea
me. (12:50:33 AM): ...

me. (12:50:38 AM): >>

him. (12:50:39 AM): Go fix it

thennn.. I sorta said this >.>

him. (12:51:04 AM): then why do you keep bringing up the fact your used to it

him. (12:51:08 AM): if you hate it
me. (12:51:12 AM): hm.

me. (12:51:15 AM): honeslty

me. (12:51:19 AM): *honestly.

me. (12:51:35 AM): i'm an idiotic attention -grubbing bitch

me. (12:51:36 AM): just deal with it

which finally led to....

him.(1:18:29 AM): One of these days Tiff.

him(1:18:32 AM): someone's going to come along

him(1:18:37 AM): and listen to your story.

him(1:18:40 AM): they'll sit and listen.

him(1:18:42 AM): and understand.

him(1:18:48 AM): They know they don't have to worry

him(1:18:51 AM): They know that

him(1:18:56 AM): but they make their decision

him(1:18:57 AM): on their own

him(1:19:00 AM): so it's not your fault.

him(1:19:03 AM): that they want to listen.

him(1:19:09 AM): and try to be of some help.

him(1:19:13 AM): There not there to pity you

talking to him made me hurt a lot more.... I haven't done anything about the hurt in so long.
he had to bring it back into the open...... fuckkk.

he always does that to me. >.< style="FONT-WEIGHT: bold; COLOR: rgb(255,0,0)" size="5">use me.
i don't care anymore.
no seriously, i love it.
chew me up, spit me out.

use me to your heart's content, until or I stop breathing. whichever comes first.
it's still in the back of my head, as I change. I can still feel it. This pressure to be something else.

Am I just a toy?


I'm still thinking about it.... everything i've done, and why they happened.
I'm not in control.

people have fucked me, drugged me, hurt me, cut me, shaped me, etc, etc. without a care in the world.

I'm numb.
I really am numb.

immune to the fact that people do these things to me.

I'm still happy I guess.
Just a little off I guess.
...
I've got something for that.
I'll be okay.

Au Revoir ~

The Loss - Hollywood Undead