what the fuck.

I'm so fucking hungover right now.
I'm writin this to help me remember what went down.

Party.
People.
Booze.
Sky Vodka... so much vodka.
3 cups of colt 45.
Weed.
Regrets, I'm pretty sure we ALL have them.
Fear, everyone was scared at one point or another.
The hilarity... Looking back on the hazy night, some of it was actually pretty funny.


I remember bits and parts of last night, most of which I want to forget...
I'm so sorry, I honestly didn't know what I was doing.
I made it stop, though, if there's a plus in that I did make it stop before it went any further.
I wouldn't let him get to second base. or third, or home. We KISSED. And truthfully, it was the worst thing I've ever done. It was disgusting, on more than a physical level.

my head hurts..
Samantha is writing on post-its
Vy-anh is half asleep
Liz is playing with the dog

I want to die.
I'm so sorry Vinh... I hope you know that.
I need to stop, so I don't do this (^that!) anymore.

Vinh... I don't know what to say to you.
I feel horrible, Jess said the same thing I said to you about what happened.
I love you, -
It's taken me forever to actually realize it, but I love you. I would never do anything like that intentionally. I was pretty fucked up.

I'm going to be better about getting drunk.
I'm not going to smoke as much.
I promise.